Hey there:) ( to anyone actually reading this) haha

OK I just had to write another blog today because my last one I felt didnt really reflect me. Yes everything in it was about me and stuff that was going on but I focused more on the negatives when in reality one of my values would be personal strength and resilience so I really think I should not only focus on the negative and also on the positives as I always say their is always light at the end of a dark tunnel and things could always be a lot worse so I owe it to myself and anyone who has read that post to write from my happy place within me and not that dark place were I felt I was the other day. I do write from the heart and don't hold back so I am sure my feelings can be seen through my writing and that isn't always a bad thing but I am very grateful for all the good things in my life and I am writing them here to remind me and also talk about some of the things that have been happening in my life despite being unwell and family issues etc because life does have to go on through everything, A month or two I thought I didnt want life to go on and that is another story and it has now been locked in a box in my mind and I have thrown the key away never to be reopened- though sometimes when I am at my lowest points I feel more inspired. However I wouldn't be being true to me if I didnt focus on the good points in my life which are of course having my family...If you have read some of my previous blog posts you will have an insight to my background and I could have been left with noone or passed about but I have not and I am very blessed and thankful for that. I also have a beautiful nephew and neice who I love so much it hurts and I look forward to watching them grow up and hopefully guide them in many ways as their aunt. I am also thankful for having a roof over my head and never running out of food and for having great health care and education and wonderful close freinds and of course I am happy for my gift of singing and love for music even if sometimes I do mess up I am human and life itself is full of these, if all the songs out their were the same wouldnt life be incredibly dull and boring? well if everyones life was the same and nothing ever happened it could be all plain sailing but we would loose the thrill and excitement of the unknown and I think its all about turning negitive energy into positive and making whats right for you work. I guess life does throw lots at us from all different angles but it is how we react and adjust to situations and how we handle ourselves is what determines in some cases the outcome but also how we travel down our pathways and journeys. OK so apart from being ill etc I have got back into my education and I am focused fully on it as I think this very important and I am out of a relationship I was in 5 months now this month and it hurt bad but now I can be excited for the future, never knowing who I will end up with or be with and I can concentrate on me. I am also moving into a new flat which gives me a project and time to put my creative energy to use and decorate which I really love. I also have a little garden so I can do some gardening (which again I love) I had to leave my part time job but I dont mind because it gives me more focus on my education and music too and I hope to record soon and have been rehearsing a few numbers. My summer was pretty relaxed due to my health but at least I was able to sit outside on the suny afternoons and walk my dog and buy a ticket to go to PINK again and visit my brother in London even if it was a sad time there.I am thankful for all the great things in my life at present and each day I guess is a gift in itself and we should all be very grateful. Their are people in hospices right now, and hospitials or at home in bed knowing this is near the end for them and people out fighting and getting killed for our countries and so many lives already been lost and so many broken hearts around us and my thoughts are with all these people right now and I really feel very lucky and blessed to have what I have. I thought it was important to jot these thoughts down and share them with anyone who may read this or come across this and I hope wherever you are you are having a nice day/evening and think of all the beautiful and great things in your life and your talents like I am doing. all my love Cat Rossxx