Hi to everyone on the next great singer and all my friends here, thankyou for taking the time out of your day to read this...it means a lot to me.

Heres the deal I used to be a positive person, upbeat. had a few problems as a child and grew up in care but never have I been as ill as I have been latley. I can no longer look after myself, cook, my memory is so bad I cannot sing unless I have the lyrics on front of me and I can hardly manage conversations. I am getting looked after and I am on medication for depression and physchosis which has made me gain 6 stone which makes me feel at my ugliest ever. I don't have a problem with big girls at all and think we should all have confidence but to go up to a size 18 has been hard and I am that dosy from medication I can't do a lot of exercise, I walk the dogs I try my best but I also can't afford heating at the minute and cannot live at home and I am down on the homeless list looking for somewere else. Basically my whole life has crumbled and the only thing I can do is wait and try to gain strength and get through it, hopefully coming out stronger. I always wanted to be an inspiration to someone and even if I can change one persons life I would feel great. I don't know when the next video upload will be and I can't do live gigs til lmy memory and of course confidence improves. I also had to give up journalism. This isn't a post wanting attention its wanting your help. its wanting that one prayer before you go to bed at night to pray that I can get better, get a roof of my own over my head and begin to enjoy life again and to be able to sing. To use the gifts God has given me to make others happy and to begin to enjoy life because we only get one shot and I want to make mine worth it, when I'm old and sitting in my rocking chair I want to be able to say, yeh I did that! and the past two years have been one of the hardest out of my life and I know what its like to have your buisness all over the media from my brothers carcrash all over the web to papers and TV and I know what its like to be that child in the care home crying herself to sleep and one day I hope to inspire someone so please pray that my health will get better soon and I can be back on top form. Thanks to the next great singer too because even writing this makes me feel like I am expressing myself a little.

thanks and I wish everyone a happy and healthy new year 2012, keep singing, dancing, acting, doing what you do because you deserve it.    LOVE CAT ROSSXXX