hey everyone:)

I have been away for a while, no blog posts, no video updates or anything but I am glad to say I am back and feeling a lot better. Unfortunately I have been very unwell and in lots of pain, I was in hospitial recently with stomach problems, first they thought it was appendicitis but now I am waiting on some ultra sound scans because they don't know what it is but it could be steming back to my suspected meningitis where I lost the power to walk( which I have regained obviousley) and was very ill and fainting a lot which would be well over a yr and a half ago now. I also have been on medication for panic attacks and anxiety and have had bad memory and stuff so its been a bit of a rollercoaster I hate to have admit. Unfortunatley I had to give up on the journalism which has been a big knock back for me..I couldnt cope with the workload and being so ill, I was sleeping all day and night basically and constantly having tempertures and being ill, however I am thankful my tutor has left me a place this year open because my work was so great so I start tommorow- making new freinds and everything again, however I don't mind I am thankful for the opportunity to study again. There have been so many changes latley, my aunt has been diagnosed with ovarian cancer and is very ill so the family are thinking of her right now. Their has also been break-ups and the wedding is of now so I am no longer bridesmaid-nearly made it!lol (never been one before) but on a serious note their is a lot of hurt and sadness around at the minute but I am sure at the end of every dark tunnel their is a light. I did take part in citybeat star search, I got through the first audition and was so happy. I also got through the second heat by judges pick but public vote I didnt as I didnt publicise myself enough due to bluntly having not enough energy! I was dissapointed in my performance I was sick and exhausted on the day and singing by the sea-frozen!Lol I also forgot a few words which I would never have really done before, I rehearsed my butt off so was so angry with myself. I was so nervous because of it all-however I have managed to sing twice on the radio and also present this year and I interviewed a popstar too and I am trying to get back on track so all is good. I wanted to say congratulations to the winner of the competition here on the next great singer!I still love this onlien community for people to share their talent and grow from one another, I hope to have more videos up soon enough so please add me as a freind, drop a hello if I haven't got round to it already and good evening wherever you are! and again sorry my blog posts are annoingly long! I could talk for the world!ol Cat Rossxxx